| im fat im disgusting i really dont deserve to live
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| so im in therapy now. i weight about 112 (51 kg) and im 5,7 (171cm). I still want to lose weight, i really really want to, but i guess i eventually will be taught not to think like that. Its so damn hard to try to stop the binging and purging/fasting. my relationship is going perfect at the moment so thats good. but still i feel depressed and my stomach hurts and im dizzy and weak most of the time, but maybe its just the thing that it has to get worse before it gets better. i wish i was skinny vs. i wish i stopped feeling bad about myself. kisses. |
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| today i'm telling my mother about my bulimia. i want to get help. im so scared.
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| i talked to my boyfriend and to my best friend and they want me to go on a therapy for eating disorders. and i need it. since im living on my own i purge 2-4 times a day and i cant control it. i feel terrible. im dizzy, my back hurts and i feel very weak. at the same time i cant lose any more weight and it makes me crazy. im fat. i think the next few days will be the hardest. if i decide to go on a therapy i need to tell my parents about me being bulimic. but i dont know if i can do this. if i decide not to get help i dont know how much longer will i be here. i dont want to get hurt nor to die. but im so ashamed.
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